childhood photos

i dont have any childhood photos.I always envy with ones who have at least one.

I was so excited to learn that my uncle took one for me and my nephew (my cousin's son who was two years older than me) in the funeral of my father's uncle. I came to his family and asked them whether I could see the photo but they said they lost it. They just said I looked very funny with one pant's leg was rolled up higher than the other.

i was sad. I even could not imagine how I looked when I was a kid.

I photographed kids who are daughters and sons of my friends,of my neighbors, my relatives and my family.

whenever I looked at the photos them I took (it is always the past) and I compared them to the present , I always feel so amazed how different they have become. So do they when they look at themselves

and sometimes, they could not recognize themselves, especially the photos when they were too young.

( the middle pictured was photographed by my friend Phuc. I was busy behind the camera that I dont have much photos of myself).

Maybe this affects me unconsciously how I photograph. I tend to take close up photos but also the photos that show more interactions as well as providing as much as information as possible.

i find myself a terrible communicator. Perhaps, I dont understand myself well so I cant present me or could not make myself relate-able . Perhaps, all the photos I take are for me rather than for anyone else.